My mom actually told me about this today. It is tragic and sorrowful and should remind us to be blessings to one another and love with all of our hearts for God's sake. God knows what's up, we don't. I'm okay with that.

http://www.music.msn.com/music/article.aspx?news=315536&GT1=7702

to be entertained

Mike left today and is headed up to PA for various reasons. Therefore I am left to fend for myself in good ol' Mebane and the entertainment is scarce on a Wednesday. I have completely cleaned the house- carpets, kitchen, bath, bedroom. I have vacuumed, dusted, made the bed, put things away, done a good amount of dishes, even rearranged things just for fun. I know, i'm a little sad. I tried to play Wii to take up some time but I didn't feel like playing very long. So I'm on my computer and what do I remember...the PAINTING ELEPHANT!!! Great entertainment- long, but worth it! Love it!!!

i hope you do as well.

hey you!

Yes, you, devoted reader (and perhaps blog writer). Please update your blog so that i have something to peruse in the evening after checking my email and my trashy gossip online. Thanks so much!

Liz

oh to be friends

Do you ever wish you could just be friends with a certain someone who is famous? There are several stars who evoke "sweet friend" material. One for me is John Mayer. Love him. Love his music. Love his humor. Since I will probably never meet him the closest I can get is the blog world. Coincidence, he blogs! He's hilarious and he's like the guy you just want to hang out with. Not even talk about his music and "celebrity", but other music, and well, youtube. Which leads to my point- both hilarious and scary. I'm sorry and you're welcome:

http://blog.honeyee.com/john/

difficult

I find it difficult to express my true emotions to few beyond Michael and my mom. Quite honestly I'm still scared of judgement by those who i consider great friends. Is it because I know I'm often guilty of judgement. I rarely express my true emotions. Perhaps that's why i connect with music so closely and with such fierce loyalty. Today was a bit of a letdown in my teaching career. It's the end of the year. Attentions are waning and I'm still teaching before the EOG's to a group of kids who only want to run around outside. Who can blame them. It's been raining since Wednesday or Thursday (drought? what drought?) and they need to just release energy. So today it's gloomy, wet, and above all lacking any sort of recess. My temper was shot, and it's only Monday. I was finishing things after a meeting and this song came on. What a wake up call. Good pop on the face. Hard to not give up and know there are better days ahead. I'm taken care of in spite of my best efforts.

Oh, it’s been one of those days

When You walk with me

So close I think
I caught the scent of angels’ wings

And my, oh my unsuspecting heart

Leaps from its place

Begins to race

I finally found the place I never want to leave
Why can’t every day, why can’t every day

Why can’t every day, can’t every day

Be like today

Oh, why do the good days end

Makes me wonder now

With the way I feel

If yesterday was even real

And why, oh why do You seem so far away
Could this mean that I’ve gone too far this time

And can I make You change Your mind, oh...

Why should any day, why should any day

Why should any day, should any day

Be like today

Do I wallow in my insecurities?

Do I trust what my feelings are tellin’ me?

Do I rest in the promise You made me

That You’ll never leave?

Oh, today my heart believes
That the truth remains

You never change

Your love for me is still the same, oh...

Why can’t every day, why can’t every day

Why can’t every day, can’t every day

Be like today?

well, that happened

While wishing my wonderful mum a Happy Mother's Day I got to catch up a bit. Tell her about Jeff's visit, the hail storm with nickle-sized hail, a reimbursement surprise, and everything else you could possibly imagine has happened to me in the last week since we've talked. Therefore it is naturally fitting that she fill me in. My brother this, home that, Dad lost his job, we're enjoying rain in Myrtle Beach.

Two years ago when my dad lost his job with Ford I was worried about my family, our security, why the good Lord would send us this way. Now, in this case, I'm more of an adult and I'm happy. My dad won't have to spend an entire work week in the car anymore, he'll be less angry and stressed over stupid people and things, and he'll be at home. Perhaps he'll finally start his own garage. He's only been talking about it for years. We'll see. All I know is that this is not the end of the world as it was before. And, well, that happened.

family

My brother is here in Mebane visiting Mike and I for a few days. He arrived yesterday evening and he'll leave tomorrow. I feel that it's not enough time, but I'll take what I can get. He'll be 20 soon and he's finished his 2nd year at the Naval Academy already. It's so funny to see him all grown up. I can handle myself becoming an adult, I have to, I live with me. But to see my little brother grow up into a man, well it's overwhelming and emotional. I love that we have a four year difference in age. Any more would be too much I think. We've gotten along for a long time but just don't talk. He's not a talker, I'm an oversharer. We deal. Though, we've talked more this weekend than we have since I lived at home. Now that in and of itself is sad but greatly promising at the same time. I know that we'll have a better relationship than my parents have with their siblings. Maybe it's because there are just two of us. Who knows. All I'm saying is it's good to have my baby brother around to protect. I miss that, you know. A lot.

Something I also miss, and not too many people know about, is my sister. Yep, you read right, a sister. A half-sister whom I haven't seen since I was maybe 10 or so. I'm 24 now. She's four years older I believe. Last I heard she was in Baton Rouge in Grad School. She pops into my mind every once and again. It's hard to imagine what it would be like to actually be involved in her life and vice versa. Things happen for a reason, I know. I still have my brother around. My little miracle brother. I'm glad of that for sure.


Currently, Jeff is playing Zelda with Mike. He still rolls on the ground tossing me back and forth. And he's become my little personal trainer. My arms are killing me right now (YAY!). We recently survived an incredible hail storm in Chapel Hill. V. frightening. We weren't hurt, but I won't be able to check my car until tomorrow. Sigh.

SCRABBLOUS!

For Michael's birthday in January my mom gave him the deluxe version of Scrabble. You know, the awesome kind on a lazy susan with raised edges for more efficient play. I have always hated Scrabble because I think my vocabulary's much smaller than it actually is. So I humor the husband and play. Wouldn't you know, I've won the last few times we've played. My winning word on the last game. I'll let the picture speak for me.

This was a huge blow to his intellect and ego. He still loves me though. Good thing! His initial reaction was similar to the picture below. Aren't we funny. Snark snark. OH scrabble!

there will be a flurry...

of posts! I've been gone and busy and busy and perhaps a little lazy. Hey you teach 120 some students a day and tell me you don't need a break from just about everything. Hopefully I'll be better about updating in the next few weeks. Here's why:

- Art show coming up at the end of the month!
- 23 days of school left
- Field Day
- Brother visit
- oh so many other things