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I find it difficult to express my true emotions to few beyond Michael and my mom. Quite honestly I'm still scared of judgement by those who i consider great friends. Is it because I know I'm often guilty of judgement. I rarely express my true emotions. Perhaps that's why i connect with music so closely and with such fierce loyalty. Today was a bit of a letdown in my teaching career. It's the end of the year. Attentions are waning and I'm still teaching before the EOG's to a group of kids who only want to run around outside. Who can blame them. It's been raining since Wednesday or Thursday (drought? what drought?) and they need to just release energy. So today it's gloomy, wet, and above all lacking any sort of recess. My temper was shot, and it's only Monday. I was finishing things after a meeting and this song came on. What a wake up call. Good pop on the face. Hard to not give up and know there are better days ahead. I'm taken care of in spite of my best efforts.

Oh, it’s been one of those days

When You walk with me

So close I think
I caught the scent of angels’ wings

And my, oh my unsuspecting heart

Leaps from its place

Begins to race

I finally found the place I never want to leave
Why can’t every day, why can’t every day

Why can’t every day, can’t every day

Be like today

Oh, why do the good days end

Makes me wonder now

With the way I feel

If yesterday was even real

And why, oh why do You seem so far away
Could this mean that I’ve gone too far this time

And can I make You change Your mind, oh...

Why should any day, why should any day

Why should any day, should any day

Be like today

Do I wallow in my insecurities?

Do I trust what my feelings are tellin’ me?

Do I rest in the promise You made me

That You’ll never leave?

Oh, today my heart believes
That the truth remains

You never change

Your love for me is still the same, oh...

Why can’t every day, why can’t every day

Why can’t every day, can’t every day

Be like today?